Fish's blog!
12/01/2026 - First blog, kinda nervous
I've been procastinating on finishing this but I think it might finally be time... or well at least I should continue. I've been doing this thing recently where I keep setting all these goals for myself, which to be honest aren't goals just fun things I know I wanna do and would have fun doing, but I just can't get myself to do them :C Every time I think I have motivation I procastinate even more and put it off for longer. For example I wanted to edit and upload a new years youtube video and I have all the footage and just need to sit down for an hour and do it but I can't and now it's the 12th already... Not that I care that I'd be uploading it late I'm not under any pressure or time crunch other than from myself but still. Whatever at least I could get myself to do this and now I have a blog page on my neocities! Maybe I can keep this streak up and uplaod the youtube video too! That'd be very nice. Other than that I also have dinner plans with my mom and her friend today so that'll be fun maybe? At worst it's free food soooo. Anyway it's way too early in the morning right now hence why I'm coding on neocities lol but that also means I dont have anything to talk about for the day so I'll cut the yapping and maybe add a few more things on here! I'm gonna do my oc page last cuz it needs a lot more effort though lolz. And I still need to learn how to fix the fact my site looks wonky on different screens UGH I wish it could just fix itself I hate being self-taught I just want things to do and fix things themselves and them tadaaa *sparkle sparkle* I have new cute shiny features! That'd be really nice. But for now I'll just keep struggling!
xoxo Fish
26/03/2026 - I'm still alive and online
Hello to literally no one who's reading this lol I'm STILL procastinating on finishing this project... in fact since last time, a bit over two months ago that i wrote here, I've done almost nothing I said I wanted to... Woopsi! I told myself I'd edit a youtube video today but I havent done that either. Well to be honest I'm talking about my projects that are specifically online. I've actually been going out and doing actual life stuff in real life. I've recently gone to the cinema, museums (that i've already seen 50 times but still), went out to eat, to bars, to take walks around my favorite neighbourhoods and the aquarium and even to ice skate. I went to two different demonstrations and have almost resolved my insurance and apprenticeship problems! But the stuff I really wanted to do here and on my youtube or my spacehey account... I have utterly and completely neglected. And that makes me upset. idk I used to have so much passion for the stuff I was doing now I cant be bothered to continue and I feel like I'm failing myself? Whatever maybe I'll finally post a youtube video and make a spacehey bulletin today. But I'm at least glad to have a lively outside life again. Oh and lastly, though it's unrelated, I've recently rewatched some of my favorite cartoons as kids and a bunch of other cartoons that I've been following up with (trollhunters, winx, shera and tadc etc) and am planning on watching more. I thought maybe I'd write analyses or smth here but I can't promise lol. I just thought it could be an interesting idea if i were to actually keep up with it. Anyway, I think the n ext time I'll update here is probably gonna be when I edit/fix up a bit of my website. So until then, byebyeee :3
xoxo Fish
17/05/2026 - It's almost summer
It's been quite a while since I wrote here but who's surprised by that lol. Life has been going pretty okay, I've started being more active on friend rewind recently! I really like the video posting and music playlist features there. I've not updated neocities super recently either but I'm also almost donee with everything on here anyway so I'm not in a big rush anymore, I've only got my "other" page to finish which will be all my links and maybe a few pics from my life or smth anyway nothing fancy. Oh and I still have a couple ocs to add to my oc list but it's also not much! I'll probably post another blog here once I finish that lol. But more importantly it's almost summer now! I want to go on vacation, specifically I wanna go on a vacation in my home country and hopefully take my boyfriend along. I'd like to show him more of my culture, friends, family etc first hand and also just go to the beach. God I miss the beach so bad... I just have to get my apprenticeship paperwork finished and then we can set a date and plan. Sometimes I wish that I'd have more of a career online just so I could make easy money off of it to go on vacations more easily and not work hard lol. But also people online honestly scare me- too many insane weirdos out there. I already get regular hate or creepy parasocial behaviour on my content now and idk how much of that I could handle if it was any more. I feel like if I just posted more regularly or was more active online I could definitely grow my audience but do I even want to? Maybe that's why I always procastinate on every post I wanna make lol I'm just subconciously avoiding it. But to get back to the topic of summer, I also need to buy new summer clothes. Yet another thing to spend money on GUH- oh well at least maybe I can find a cute outfit or two. I'm running out of yap so I'm gonna end the blog update here, so thanks for reading!
xoxo Fish